It's been about a year since we moved to California and what a great year it's been. Our lease was up and we were starting to contemplate buying a house since we are pretty sure we will be here at least four more years. The schools are amazing and we love the area. In addition, my husband and I enjoy watching HGTV and fixing things up and we often dream of working together to restore a house into OUR home. However, a few years ago I felt the Lord speak to me with absolute clarity that for our family, that would not be in our near future (maybe one day but not anytime soon). I knew the Lord was calling us to be available to go wherever He sends us in His timing. For some reason my selfishness has been getting in the way lately and I can't help but want something a little more permanent.
Over the past few weeks I have been reading through the Bible and am currently in the book of Numbers. Not one of the most popular books of the Bible and there are many times I find myself skimming over hard to pronounce names and not being able to connect with the way of life described. However I still ask the Lord to speak to because His Word is alive and able to move regardless of the "entertainment" value. As I was reading in Numbers 18, the duties of the priests and the Levites were being described (again, not an edge-of-your-seat passage). I was learning how there were people called to something different than the rest of the tribes. At the end of chapter 18, the Lord speaks to Aaron and says "You shall have no inheritance in their land, nor shall you have any portion among them. I am your portion and your inheritance among the children of Israel."
I immediately knew this was a word for me at a time I really needed it. I get caught up in earthly comforts and worldly desires. I know my preferences for home decorating sometimes more than I know God's preferences for my life. I tend to be an organized person and can clearly tell anyone where something is or belongs in each room of my house. But when it comes to knowing the Lord that intimately, I often lack. Not only did the Lord tell Aaron that he wouldn't have an inheritance or a portion but He also said "I AM your portion AND your inheritance." Whatever God calls us away from, He desires to take that place and be enough. I realize with greater certainty that He desires to be my portion. To sustain me. To fill me. And for me know Him. I know the house thing might seem silly or not a big deal but it's what gets the attention that is meant for the Lord. What is it that God might be calling you away from? It could actually be a good thing but not "your" thing. How will He be your portion and your inheritance?
